To the shy guys...

I was talking to this friend of mine last night, who is a great guy and unfortunately he doesn't really have much luck when it comes to dating.  He says, "Why don't girls just ask guys out, that way at least we know you are interested."

Well, seems like if a guy is interested in a girl, he would ask her out, otherwise, she would assume he is not, and maybe a great girl would slip right through his fingers...or her fingers (a great guy that is)...usually you don't even know how you feel about someone until you pursue a relationship with them.  Just saying....I think there are a ton of great guys out there that sell themselves short and dont go for that girl.  Yes, the louder guys tend to get more attention, but then all the other ones don't get noticed because they are too shy to ask.  How is the girl going to know the guy at all if he doesn't try, especially if he is shy? ha

Besides, in my experience, if a girl does the pursuing the guy just doesn't have interest because she is too forward.  And I for one have been that girl and refuse to do it anymore, because it only results in a lot lot lot of heartache, because for some reason girls just hang on longer.  So if a guy doesn't pursue me, well, I might show interest for awhile but he is definitely NOT going to keep me on the shelf forever and not do anything about it. Most girls feel that way, they will move on to more productive pastures. lol.  So to you shy guys out there, I say just go for it, because you are awesome and have a lot to offer, and I promise if you just try you will find someone, somewhere. haha ...and yes guys say they are dense and dont get the hints, thats why I say just go for it.  And to you who I was talking to, you know who you are! :)  and yes I stayed up an hour past my bedtime cause I liked our conversation. haha GOOD LUCK!! poor guys....

Sweet Sunday Moments....

 Dear world, there were some great things that happened today......

1. (and this one was my favorite...) When a speaker at Church gave a talk on faith, and mentioned in her talk a British equivalent NBA player who decided not to play games on Sunday, my mom leaned over to me after the meeting was over, and despite all the trials she is going through, told me that she is now newly committed to keeping the Sabbath day holy.  What a sweet moment to my heart! She said she will prepare beforehand by buying what she needs the day before.  You don't understand how much that means! :)

2.  At church, I got greeted by the Ward Mission leader, and he was excited to see me because he thought maybe I was new in the ward.  How friendly of him...and his co-chair was also there with him, as well as the sister missionaries.  What a friendly ward!  It really sweetened my day.   It is so good to see such faithful Saints all over the world. 

3.  Me and my dad had been trying to get ahold of my aunt for the last couple of days.  I finally sent her a text as a last resort, and she happened to see my text right as my dad decided it was too late to go.  :(  She's been struggling so much lately I thought maybe we could come by and visit and just be her friend.  My dad immediately decided to drive over to see her anyways, and it was a great visit.  It may have been a small thing, but I am so glad we got to see her!  My cousin was there, too.  What a treat.  And she laughed and joked with us the whole time.  I think it did lift her up, as when we were about to leave, she said "oh, I am sad, now my entertainment is gone." 

4.  A beautiful sunset.  Oh I am going to miss it here.

5. But, I do get to see my great friends in Provo tomorrow.  Hopefully I didn't drive everyone crazy with all my texts this week.  :)  Til then, see you soon, and remember that every day we can see the Lord's hand in lots of ways if we just stop and look.  He is in the details.  Try it, it really refreshes your thoughts and perspective!

I am going to miss these little missionary moments I've been having all week, hopefully I can still have them in Provo!

--Shayna

Where did the sunshine go?

I'm here in California visiting my family still. It's been really fun and I am not looking forward to going back to work. haha...I guess we wouldn't be happy if we didn't ever work for anything huh...

I think I made my decision.  (drum roll please.....) 

I have decided it would be best to keep working at my job until July when it will end, and then move after that.  We will see where I end up. :) That way I can keep saving money.  And plans for Italy might change....TBA.

And whoever said California is warm all the time? its 48 degrees. Brr!  Its still California though, good ole beautiful place with way too many people and way too much traffic....I think I would love to live in the central valley one day.  :)  Its way chill there, there's a lot more space, and its a lot cheaper!   And there are way fewer people and it is more conservative.  There you have it.

To anyone reading this, have a great day, ok??  I mean it.

love,
shayna

Struggling with a Tough Decision...

Well, I am here in good ole California visiting my family for the post-holidays.  It's been fun, its been real....and earlier this year I got sick of being so lonely so I decided I would move back in April.

Now that I am here, (albeit just visiting), I am frusterated, I am feeling like though I love my family I do not know if I could just live here.  And housing in California is way over my budget (which I would much prefer having my own place with roommates).  In fact, one month of rent would wipe out my entire savings account.  Not only that, but even though I am here, I feel out of place a little bit and uncomfortable because my parents haven't really had me around being an "adult", so when I try to just do things on my own or be my own person, they jump in and say things or correct things....which I can totally understand, and maybe they are right but I like doing things on my own.  Ugh...The thing is, there is a good school here I was planning on attending that has a great price, and I could live at home for free and get my education done, then I could find a good job that pays well (cause its California...) Not to mention, its freakin CALIFORNIA. SO FUN lol.  (nothing against Utah. It's a good place.) 

What should I do, because in Provo, Yes, I have my own space, but it sure is lonely even though you are surrounded by thousands of people your age.  Maybe I should move outside of Provo....What do I do?? (my whole family is soo excited that I made the decision to move out...and it would really disappoint them if I didn't. ) I'm just not really feeling great about this.....

Hmm......