She's So Shy

It seems like lately I've noticed more of my shy-ness coming out. Ha...I feel like I do pretty well sometimes, if I'm in the right frame of mind.....but I just get soo anxious sometimes around people that aren't my family members. I don't even know if anyone knows that! But there ya go, a big secret of Shayna. I guess when I say I do well at times, it really means I have put on a face, its not really me, but we are told all too often that we need to be a certain way--friendly, outgoing, cheerful, loving, lifting others up.....and I try to do that, but when it comes to people who don't know me well I guess I get really afraid of just being normal and me. Because I am really quiet....and reserved. But inside my brain there are all kinds of cool things going on! I just wish I could be able to open my brain up and let it out. And I do honestly like other people and care about their lives and stuff, I just don't know how to get that across. In my family I am such a different person! I love them soo much, and know that no matter how I am, they will love me back. And it's not like I'm a bad person around them, I'm just me. But I guess I try to guard *me* a lot, then I get all anxious about it....and then it just makes it worse. haha! Oh boy....I guess the Lord gives us weaknesses for a reason. .....sigh......I just hope whoever guy tries to go after me can figure out how to do it haha.....