Zzzzzz.......

What is it about sitting in a chair all day in the same spot for eight hours, maybe walking around for a little bit, walking patients to get some lunch, or taking the roll or something, that makes work so incredibly draining????  Even sitting in a desk all day long..whats up with that?  It's like, you sit there, on your bum-bum, in sheer and utter boredom, and then when you FINALLY get to go home from such a draining day, you sit on the couch for two hours to recouperate, and then its time for bed?? (yeah, thats spelled wrong whatever, I dont know how to spell so get over it)

Do explain, I would like to figure this out.  When I worked as a server...which I still do but only or 2 more weeks....I got home and was up and motivated to get all kinds of things done.  It was fabulous!  So weird.  

Cotton Rio

Whats up with all this cotton?  Well its prettymuch over, I think, but what a WEIRD thing!  Seriously...

Alright so this is old news, but....I got to see DIAMOND RIO!!!! And we had like 6th row seats!! I am so surprised that there were hardly any people there! its DIAMOND RIO! come ON people they are legends! :)  

Anyway I just had to post this...they were so awesome.  seriously.  

The end.

That's right...STRIKE the toothless, foreign type!

Ladies, this is a great guide to find a man....LOL....LOVE it!!!

Thanks Emily for putting this on your facebook HA!  :)  

Hellooo!

1.  "Catching Fire" is AMAZING.. I'm not quite done with it yet, but please, please, for the sake of having an amazing experience, read the Hunger Games books.  Wow, they are SO awesome.

2.  Work is going better--they put me on a much better unit, the one for the elderly, and I loved it!  Plus, the patient who yelled at me the other day came up to me and said she was sorry.  I'm not sure if that was from her or from the PT's telling her that it wasn't nice.  haha...I really, really hope they keep me on that unit.  But I know they will be moving me around....I will pray really hard that I will love all the patients there and that I don't become burnt out and grumpy like all the other PT's....

Now I just have to play it out the next couple weeks and decide if I am going to stay with it, leave my old job, or what...I can't handle all this work, HA!  I dont know how you people hold 2 jobs.  

3.  Everyone is hooking up! What is going ON here!  I've resigned myself to enjoying the single life.  I'm thinking about moving home next year and either going to school out there or working.  I miss my family and they miss me.  And I'm almost 27...at that point I will be at least...not that I'm giving up on Provo, but why should I keep hanging out here when my family could really use me at home?  Ugh.  Why, I ask, because I always feel like this is a good place for me to be.  sigh....

4.  Sleep is sooo good.  I hope everyone gets enough sleep.  If not, you better get that fixed.  I'm learning this lesson. HA

5.  We have wet carpets because the carpet "cleaners" came in today...I'm not so sure if they get clean at all but they do make nice little lines from the vacuum thingy.  Thanks Carriage Cove....well, at least we know our 50 bucks a pop for carpet cleaning fees is being used.  I think it took him all but 20 minutes to do our whole apartment...hmmm....sign me up for THAT job! 

6.  I had a dream I was pregnant the other night.  Don't worry, I've been having these dreams for about 5 years now.  HA!  Maybe all these pregnant friends of mine are getting in my brain.

7.  Have a GREAT day!

Just need a second to vent and cry a little....

So today I was on the unit at work all day for the first time.  It was going pretty well until the afternoon!  This one patient, who was telling me how great I was earlier in the day, started yelling at me, saying that my eyes were coming out of their sockets, that I was an alien (which was kind of funny in all honesty)--but then she proceeded to pick on me about physical things that I am already extremely sensitive about--it was really, really hard to just sit there and listen to her.  I couldn't say anything because she is a patient, and obviously not in her right mind--not only that but when people start to verbally abuse me I just clam up and don't know how to say anything back--whether they are right in the head or not.  Just brings back a lot of really bad memories and feelings associated with those memories and experiences that lasted for a good portion of my life--I kinda shut down and get into my own little world.  Ugh!  Maybe that is too personal to say on a blog, if so I am really sorry.  This job is really, really hard.  I dont know if I can take it--maybe it will be a good chance for me to learn how to deal with past demons and move forward--I'm just gonna have to keep praying to get through every day!  AH!  

27 Dresses-My Life as a Bridesmaid!

Actually, I cannot be any more happy that my sister is getting sealed in the LDS St. Paul Minnosotta Temple this summer! (For those of you who don't know what sealed means, well that is basically a marriage.  But in our religion, we believe that marriage is something, if done at the temple and by the right authority, that is to last forever--even after death, and then you get to keep your spouse and all of your children not only for this life, but you will be a family after you die, forever and ever!)  

 She asked me to be her maid-of-honor, which I am so grateful that we have the kind of relationship as sisters that she didn't even have to think twice.  It's so crazy seeing your siblings grow up!! She is a BABE!!! And a sweetheart through and through.  She always makes me laugh, always has cheer even when she is grumpy at the whole world, always thinks of others, very compassionate, funny....I could go on.  We are like polar opposites in so many ways, but this is probably why I love her and appreciate her so much!

And so, as a result of being her maid-of-honor...ahem.....I am looking for Bridesmaid Dresses.  Anyone got any ideas???  Her colors are Royal Blue and White.  Yeah, there's tons of Navy out there, but not so much Royal Blue.  

Dress #1:

AAH! Love this one....with a little jacket or something of course......

OH my gosh...if only we had an unlimited budget!!! I think these dresses are at least $200....but I would LOVE something just like them!!!  The bottom one is definitely my favorite.  :)  Oh this makes me want to be a wedding planner! ha! 

New Job!

I started a new job this week! Actually, I haven't really started the actual job yet, as it takes 3 weeks of training!

I will be working at the Utah State Hospital as a Psych Tech....SO intimidating!  Basically I hang out with the patients and make sure they dont hurt themselves or others, and I help them to implement their recovery plans so that they can progress and become successful members of the community.

I'm learning a lot, and I think the biggest lesson I'm getting so far is that they are just people with a disability or an illness, like if someone were to say they have Diabetes.  A mental disorder is the same kind of thing.  That helps me to remove my stigma's and to view it as something that isn't so scary.  Because honestly I am terrified.  I think I'm afraid that I'm not gonna be happy there, especially since I'll be working with so many patients who have serious depression--we are talking suicidal.  Sometimes I'm afraid it will rub off on me or something!  I hate feeling depressed.  But we will see!

This week we have been learning a ton--how to get out of a potentially dangerous physical situation by de-escalating verbally, and if that doesn't work, how to take down or restrain a person who is physically attacking you.  Scary stuff!

We also learned CPR and rescue breathing, and basic first aid.  I would love to say I remember everything, but there is just so much information my brain can handle.  I am officially CPR certified, though!

This has been a good experience, for sure.  I think everyone should learn these skills, not just people who are working in hospitals!  It's been an eye opener, really!  We all struggle with things, and sometimes life just weighs on us to the point where we can't do it alone.  That's why there are places like this, and I believe they exist because the Lord cares about all of His children and wants them to experience joy and a quality life.

The other techs seem awesome, too.  They are fun, down to earth, easy to talk to, and I think we are going to get along great. There are so many good people out there!

Give me your Top 10 Reasons!

...of Why we need men in our lives...what are your favorite reasons??  Whoever can give me the best top 10 list, so good it motivates me to actually put forth effort in dating...gasp....wins..um.. a cookie, and i'll probably post your responses actually.  Just because that is fun.  I think I need a little motivation HAHA....

Plus, it is Father's Day soon!!!  So this is just GREAT!

The INFJ.....

I don't know why but I think this stuff is so cool.  I took the Myers-Briggs personality test several times and I always get this one, and I think it totally describes me.  I think everyone should take it, its so interesting!  Forget Zodiac signs..PSHHH!!  Ha......

And I can't make that not in caps, sorry....I'm not yelling at you, this whole blogging thing is so difficult sometimes! haha :)  

(yes, this did come from Wikipedia...haha!)

Characteristics of INFJs

Some practitioners have speculated that Johann Wolfgang von Goethe was an INFJ.^[12] However, according to the guidelines for the ethical use of the MBTI, only those taking the assessment can identify their own best fit.^[13]

INFJs are conscientious and value-driven. They seek meaning in relationships, ideas, and events, with an eye toward better understanding themselves and others. Using their intuitive skills, they develop a clear vision, which they then execute decisively to better the lives of others. Like their INTJ counterparts, INFJs regard problems as opportunities to design and implement creative solutions.^[14]

INFJs are quiet, private individuals who prefer to exercise their influence behind the scenes. Although very independent, INFJs are intensely interested in the well-being of others. INFJs prefer one-on-one relationships to large groups. Sensitive and complex, they are adept at understanding complicated issues and driven to resolve differences in a cooperative and creative manner. ^[3]

INFJs have a rich, vivid inner life, which they may be reluctant to share with those around them. Nevertheless, they are congenial in their interactions, and perceptive of the emotions of others. Generally well-liked by their peers, they may often be considered close friends and confidants by most other types. However, they are guarded in expressing their own feelings, especially to new people, and so tend to establish close relationships slowly. INFJs tend to be easily hurt, though they may not reveal this except to their closest companions. INFJs may "silently withdraw as a way of setting limits," rather than expressing their wounded feelings—a behavior that may leave others confused and upset.^[15]

INFJs tend to be sensitive, quiet leaders with a great depth of personality. They are intricately and deeply woven, mysterious, and highly complex, sometimes puzzling even to themselves. They have an orderly view toward the world, but are internally arranged in a complex way that only they can understand. Abstract in communicating, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. With a natural affinity for art, INFJs tend to be creative and easily inspired.^[16] Yet they may also do well in the sciences, aided by their intuition.^[17]

Correlation with Enneatype

According to Baron and Wagele, the most common Enneatypes for the INFJ are The Romantic (Fours), The Reformer (Ones), and The Peacemaker (Nines).^[1