Wait, I am moving out of here???..and another self realization.

Last night me and my friends went to check out this townhouse up in Pleasant Grove.  It was cute, homey, in a neighborhood with real people (aka, not college students, but married people and some single lady with 3 kids)....and I thought, wow this actually feels like a home.  Accept we three are single girls who basically fail at Provo life cause we are all too old for it...(ok let me be more positive about that, we simply have outgrown Provo in some ways, though I love Provo. Sara is NOT too old for Provo, but she has had a lot of life experience behind her.)  I mean, logically it doesn't make sense to be "too old" for a city, but when all of your neighbors are about 22ish, still in school, workin at Taco Bell, and you are graduated as of about 3 years ago, work a full time job, and are kind of ready to just live life, well.....flyers about "rockin party must be 18 to come play" "DJ Hizzy in the Hizzouse", "Come Meet Hotties in 237"....well, its fun and all but...I go to bed at 10 dangit, and everyone else in Provo my age has about 3 kids by now....(which is totally fine...its just hard to hang out with them ha)  (and dont get me wrong, I love a good night of fun.)

Oh man..this means some major changes. I'm scared, not gonna lie!  What if this new place has no social life at all?  What if everyone is so old and set in their ways?  What if I go there and feel shut off from any kind of life because I actually have to drive to find anything fun to do?  And the drive...gasp....my job already starts at 630 in the morning and I work in Provo, which means from PG it will be like half an hour.  Is it worth it?  Cause I might just move back to CA at the end of Summer anyways....so is it worth it?  It might change my mind about moving out of Utah...then again it might make me really WANT to go home haha.

I will say one thing.  I have full confidence and trust in the Lord, that if I do my part, He will not let me go the way that I shouldn't go.  I know that if I do my part, and let Him do His part, things will work out the way they ought to.  I am happy, really, with my life. I don't feel like I have to complain about being single (yah took me long enough haha), and I like that I have all this freedom to go out and do things that I have always wanted to do (well, as long as I can afford it ha).  I have been blessed immensely--wonderful family, food on my table, a roof over my head, good friends, things to laugh at, things to learn, moments of pain that only allow me to deepen my life's experiences and learn things.  I finally feel like life's tradgedies are in perspective, and I realize this is thanks to the Temple.  Oh how I love the Temple.  It is also thanks to past experiences that were really tough for me at the time but then I learned things!  Isn't life great?  So...here's hoping for a positive experience, but if not, here's hoping I will be humble enough to learn from whatever happens.  :)

PS...Another Self Realization

OH my gosh...I am a FLIRT!! Did not even realize that....But here I am....and man is life fun. HA....I thought I was done with all this flirtyness business a couple years ago....

But I just hope I haven't hurt anyone in the process...gasp....JUST trying to make life fun for everyone! :)  Isn't it fun to be flirted with?  I do declare, it sure is!

The trouble with bein a flirt, though, is that when people actually try to chase me down, I just run away.  Bye bye!  Run, run, as fast as you can, you can't catch me, I'm the Gingerbread woman!  ha..that, and when I actually get serious, I get way too serious. Yuck.  So let us commence with the fun and try to find the right balance in life, shall we?

Oh dear me, what has gotten into my 27 year old brain?  I kind of like it......