Family is so important!

Sappy story time...

The other day, I was driving from my dad's house to my aunt's house so that I could go to class. While I was driving, I started imagining what life would be like without my daddy. (I know, depressing, right?)  But he is getting older, and every time I look at him, I remember what he used to look like not too long ago.  And then I think, "wow, my daddy is not going to live forever :( "  And I remember all of our good times and all of the times I am sure I hurt him and how I wish I would have handled things better, and then I start to get really sad because life is so short, and I have been away from home for so long, and I have missed out on being with these wonderful family members of mine for many years.  And they really do get older, and sicker, and life is so short.  And then as I proceeded to drive, I started to bawl imagining how I don't ever want to lose my daddy or my mom or anyone else because I love them so much.  And I was crying for like half the drive...that's an hour...lol...And I keep wishing my dad would have a change of heart about the Gospel and thinking the Eternal nature of families is great, if your loved ones accept all of it and are trying to live it.  It's great anyway, but I worry so much that my daddy won't ever accept it, and even if he gets to the other side, that he will struggle with it and he won't be with me.  :(  And now I am starting to cry again...haha.  You know those old questionairres that would float around via email that asked you things like "have you ever loved someone so much it made you cry"?  Well, I can tell you I can now answer that with a yes. ha. 

Oh folks. Family is so important.  And so easy to take for granted.  As I tucked my grandma into bed tonight (she is not feeling well today and had to get to bed early and put her oxygen on), she says, "I love you, sweetie. I wish I was young and beautiful again." Oh, Grandma, I wish I had your ability to love and to remember what is most important in life and to be as wise and unselfish as you. :)  

 Aunt Mona and my mom...Doctors are giving her maybe til Christmas if we are lucky....gosh I hate cancer.  :(