Dear world,
I feel like this is turning more into a journal, and I'm not gonna lie, I kind of like that idea. Anyways, today I went to Institute at my assigned Stake institute on BYU campus. The teacher was NOT what I expected--she was a lady probably in her 30's (as she spoke about her 20's in past tense...and there is no way she's older than in her 30's.) She didn't serve a mission (said each time she prayed about it she didn't feel right, even though she wanted to go so badly..BINGO just like me! haha), she wasn't the most beautiful, nor was she super eloquent like a lot of the teachers I have encountered at the UVU institute. But what was it about her that made me want to keep listening....well, she was open. She was REAL. She has flaws, she admits them and says she wants to improve. She is a busy, single (awesome, again..just cause its so inspiring how great she is), imperfect, and yet incredibly powerful woman who mentioned how she knows what an important role she has in building up the kingdom of God on earth before the 2nd Coming. Whoaaaaa!
Anyways, I think what made her so great is that I left that classroom realizing how much I have been LACKING the last month or two in trying to become closer to the Lord. I mean, really, really, closer. Not just reading scriptures, not just praying, but REALLY coming to KNOW Him, in order to change and to become more like Him, and to accept Him in all aspects of my life. Isn't that the whole point?? It wasn't that she knew all the significant dates in history or that she had been to the Sacred Grove and was impressing us with her knowledge of how many footsteps so and so took when he walked to a new city to share the gospel, or whatever...ok thats random but you get the point.....she stated at the beginning of class that if we did NOT leave the class wanting to be a better person, with a repentant heart, recognizing and going forth with a new determination to change something in our lives, that she was not an effective teacher, neither were WE effective students in allowing the Spirit to talk to us and to help us to change. Why is it that we avoid that so often? Well, I for one get distracted sometimes. That and I'm afraid of what I am going to feel sometimes, but why? It always turns out for the best.
I really, really hope this becomes something more important in my life. I mean, of primal importance, and I am so glad I went to that class, and so glad I realized how imperfect I am...still have a ways to go and I'm afraid to ask for more recognitions of that..haha just kidding. Anyways, that was the thought of the day.
Goodnight!
<3 Shayna
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