Struggling with a Tough Decision...

Well, I am here in good ole California visiting my family for the post-holidays.  It's been fun, its been real....and earlier this year I got sick of being so lonely so I decided I would move back in April.

Now that I am here, (albeit just visiting), I am frusterated, I am feeling like though I love my family I do not know if I could just live here.  And housing in California is way over my budget (which I would much prefer having my own place with roommates).  In fact, one month of rent would wipe out my entire savings account.  Not only that, but even though I am here, I feel out of place a little bit and uncomfortable because my parents haven't really had me around being an "adult", so when I try to just do things on my own or be my own person, they jump in and say things or correct things....which I can totally understand, and maybe they are right but I like doing things on my own.  Ugh...The thing is, there is a good school here I was planning on attending that has a great price, and I could live at home for free and get my education done, then I could find a good job that pays well (cause its California...) Not to mention, its freakin CALIFORNIA. SO FUN lol.  (nothing against Utah. It's a good place.) 

What should I do, because in Provo, Yes, I have my own space, but it sure is lonely even though you are surrounded by thousands of people your age.  Maybe I should move outside of Provo....What do I do?? (my whole family is soo excited that I made the decision to move out...and it would really disappoint them if I didn't. ) I'm just not really feeling great about this.....

Hmm......